Run Melbourne is on July 15th which means I have committed to trying to run 5 kilometres in less than two months. I am going to set my alarm for 5:30am and try to convince myself that I must get out of bed and go for a shuffle-jog despite the dark and cold. I don’t know if I can do it, but it is something I need to push myself to try to start doing regularly or I will never get there. Many of my ‘self improvement’ projects feel like I am too quickly sliding backwards lately.
I am struggling to feel motivated at work, and it is being noticed by others. I am struggling to feel motivated to eat well, and tonight after dinner Dave and I halved a packet of vanilla oreo cookies. I am struggling again, after having a good week last week. I feel like I am on a see-saw!